Dec 14, 2010
This cupcakes were requested by my husband's cousin for her second daughter's engagement day. Her first just had hers a few months back. And another niece is on the 25th.
Oh my gosh, all this wedding bells, hit me on how time flies. It feels like it was only last year that they were 17 and just completed their high school. And the first that came across my mind was that on how my life had changed since then .. on what I had achieved so far.
I had learned a new skill, discovered a new love into this cake decoration art. I learned the basics on baking and took Certificate of Patisserie at Choffles. I completed my MBA. But somehow or rather I still feel that there is something not accomplished... and most worrying is that I am not sure what is that. I am thinking to take my Doctorate or just stay focus on my cakes but then. .. hmm so many buts ...
There were once I read that says, being rich is not by having so much but by needing less; being happy is not counting what you don't have but by being thankful of what you have ..
Hmm so now where does that make me? Ungrateful or ambitious? Or just lost ...
It's 5.01 am and I am wide awake. Its Saturday .. and am I not supposed to still enjoying my sleep?
Today's plan supposed to be straight forward. Go to the gym and comes home before everyone else wakes up (its Saturday :p), send my better half to work, have breakfast with kids and then dragged them to Aisyah's house to help her with her engagement souvenirs .. Should complete by noon, fetch him from work and go to the lunch gathering at Zam Zam Restaurant, Shah Alam .. Okay that was the plan, until last night when he said his mum wants to know if I am going with her to the Optician and get my son's eyes checked. Dang! I totally forgotten about that okay! Of course I have to go, and why did I left that out ...god knows. Sigh ..
And because of that minor 'distruption' -- Anxiety hits and ta daaaa.... I can't sleep. Hahaha funny isn't it? But that's me, whom my former boss used to say .. 'a woman who worries too much'. I am worried if I don't go with my mum-in-law, she'd think I a hopeless mum ... but if I don't go and help Aisyah ... I would not know how the whole engagement set looks like and how could I make her mini wedding cakes beautifully matching them ... and if I don't go to the lunch gathering I would miss the opportunity catching up with my old friends whom I have not met for years .. gosh, how could something so simple becomes so mind blowing???
I guess to solve this, I need to make some calls later .. and re-schedule, if I could defer some to Sunday ..
Okay .. that should be okay. InsyaAllah ... so for now, let me relax myself with Sophie Kinsella's while waiting for Subuh.
Dec 1, 2010
Nov 5, 2010
A recent meeting at my employer's business partner's office made my mind kept on thinking about this. Space. A word that relate to so many things in my life right now ..
That office or shall I correctly say, building, is a landmark to that stretch of road. Very impressive, which one could not help but to look with awe.
However, it was a bit disappointing when you stepped into it.
The light at the main lobby was very dim, making you feel a bit melancholic. Ha ha okay, okay .. I am being a bit exaggerating here! But well it does make you feel un-welcomed. Luckily the two receptionists' smiles helped to soften the feel.
As you walked into the office, huge yes, spacious yes, but however, they were compartmentalized into several rooms, which does not do much justice to the space. Reminded me off my previous office at Damansara Heights in that 20 year old building. In my mind, probably the management believes in form rather than substance. Interior design may be lousy but hey they provide the best service ever, or probably rather save the money for the bonus. Hmm ...
Anyway, that just lead to a theory that size does not really equal to space. One could have a big sized office but yet would not have much space. Correct?
Now to relate it back to my life, in this small 850 square feet apartment, where my recent project was assembling a two tier, 12" and 8" wedding cake, when god knows how many times I kept screaming to myself, "I need more space!!!" that I even thought, probably I need to rent the neighbor's house! Or a shop lot even!
But for now, while I am trying improve my finance. That would not be the best solution.
Probably, I need to sit and use some imagination to organize my furniture.
Probably I could have my 'space' after all ... lets make the best of what I have now..
Aug 24, 2010
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May 25, 2010
"Mama, who are these Spiderman cupcakes for" a curious note popped out from my 'reserved and quiet' son.
"Its for Nassif, Ad Din's friend from the hospital ..remember"
"Owh .. wow .. and he is also two?"
"Well, Ad Din just know Mickey Mouse and he doesn't know his name"
Hmm ... yeah, actually in comparison, my friend's son is more advanced than my son. Then I started to ponder.
I had 4 kids before Ad Din .. and all were taken care by me and my husband. No maid. But when we had Ad Din, I was in the midst of completing my MBA .. and having a maid has suddenly becoming a need.
The initial intention was that the maid could help out with the chores, but now I realize that she had become the second mum to Ad Din.
And now since I started baking, at times I let the maid took him to bed with her, without realizing that I had deny him that special privilege of having his mum tugging him to bed.
Ad Din is now two, just a day older than Nassif. .. and I hope its not too late to make a change, and make him 'mummy's little boy' again...